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Greeds

Boleh ngga kali ini aja, aku ngelanggar peraturan yang kubuat? 🙂

Entah ini pengaruh karena lagi agak sulit buat adaptasi dan mengikuti arus hidup, tapi aku bener-bener lagi di state yang fragile banget. Sesak banget rasanya. Cape karena setiap nangis, pasti yang ga bersuara. Pengen banget dan butuh banget, at least sekali, buat bisa nangis bersuara dan teriak kencang-kencang.

My heart’s been acting weird lately, mungkin pengaruh itu kali ya. Ada waktu-waktu dimana rasanya irama detak jantungku bertingkah seolah jiwaku lagi berusaha ditarik keluar, tapi entah karena apa, jiwanya ga mau keluar. Just a little hurt, but it makes me wonder, ‘what is this?’.

I have to admit that having some bestfriends are great. I get to learn how to understand people better, how the world can seems much brighter when you’re not alone. But i don’t think i can adapt my whole self to that kind of life. I feel like i don’t deserve it.

Tau gimana rasanya sesak ada di tengah-tengah ruangan berasap tanpa ada ventilasi? Begitulah yang kurasain di dalam. Too much smoke that i can’t even see anything. Too much smoke that i can’t even breathe.

*i wrote this…i don’t know, i forget alr XD The point is, enjoy your life, live the fullest and don’t think too much :*

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